sometimes

Sometimes I care..
But for the most part I don't.

For me relationships are horrible.. I can never figure them out..
Maybe it's me...
Maybe it's them...
Maybe it's us...

None the less.. it's still a difficult thing.

When and if I ever get back into a relationship.. I want the person to truly care for me.. not what I have...
For the person to be into me and just me...
Not running over me...

Cause it seems like this is a re-occuring pattern for me...

Blah.


I jus want someone to be cool with my quirks and things about me that no one knows....

I stopped looking a long time ago..

But really I jus wanna quit..

All together...

And jus ignore whatever pops up..

Because once I do love it's hard...

And who wants a broken heart...

Or to be bitter..

I jus wanna be better...


So untill the opprotunity of a loyal person who's jus into me appears... then so be it.. cause the rest of you are on mute....

Applebees

sooo.. yesterday I went to applebees, with this girl.. she's skinny, and cute.. buncha hair.. and she smiles alot... she's not sure if she likes girls.. Idk if she's sure.. well, I mean it's clear that she isn't sure.. but I wonder if she would be remotley intrested in me.. that apple bee's has my tummy hurting...

or maybe imma be thrown into the friend zone...idk.. blah...

but yeah.. I kinda cleaned my room.. it looks nice.. my mom says it be cleaner...


omg.. why am I watching general hospital.. booooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!


anyways off to play wii with ciggy and the applebee's loving skinny girl.. LOL.

long time no see..

Hey..


what's up?

so it's been a while since I posted anything, due to my busy as a bee thing I have going on, but How are you? LOL.

anyways, so I think that I am doing well.. me and my sister talked today and she's not happy with school.. and to be honest, school isn't for everyone and even if she never went back she would still be my sister, and I still would love her, to no end....


women..

so as of recently I have been putting myself out there, trying to see what's out there, and I met a few people, but it's kinda hard keeping so many conversations, up. I'm jus chillin right now, jus got friends and I like it like that, because to be honest I don't know what I want.. I jus know I want to be single for now, nobody hasn't caught my attention long enough, for me to want to be with them.... except.. well the girl in previous blogs, but right now I still care abt her, so it's not fair to benchmark other people due to how I feel about her, so I tell them I want to be friends, because that is what I want to be, and then if something develops then so be it..


I brought some fresh fresh dunks a while back, and I think imma wear them soon, I forgot about them, and some ups that I have.. maybe I'll wear them tommrrow..

I had a get together for my mom on friday, and hung out with some old and new friends, it's been a while since I could actually do that and I loved that everyone was there and was enjoying everyone's company...

I can't go back to sleep..ugh...