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Monday, December 15, 2008

it's not about you, or me.. it's about...

Whatever I want it to be. It's my thoughts. this is not about some girl, whom I apparently love... this is not about me being bored. I have kept a journal for years. and now I want to make it public. I am not going to dedicate a blog to you, bear.. cause when I want to write about you, I promise it's going to be an honest depiction of whatever I am feeling, about you or anyone...


but since you brought it up.

my friend has an issue, and it's liquor. and it makes people not want to be around him. cause the old guy I knew doesn't exist anymore, the one that used to give me the biggest hugs, and forehead kisses, is now one of the most irresponsible people i know. he screams at me when he's angry to the point where it has kinda made me scared to be around him in that state. i don't know what to do and or to say, and sometimes I wish I could save him, idk if he knows when he calls me and he's drunk i cry cause it literally breaks my heart. .. but I don't know what to do... so i pray about it, and keep contact to a minimum because i don't know how to handle and or deal with our friendship anymore. I love him alot, alot, alot.. but Idk what to do....


You can't save them all...

MY mom says everyone isn't like you or is going to do what you want them to, so why is it that I feel bad when something goes wrong. I always am helping someone. and sometimes what I want isn't what people want.

homework...blah..

so I am going to attempt to make today a homework day... but I truly doubt that it will happen....


sticky rice and mango! Hopefully I can get some today.... speaking of that I got my hand done over again.. it looks pretty snazzy. lol. maybe i'll mobile upload a pic on FB....


stop threatening to stop being friends with me.. one day imma take you up on your offer. crazy. I don't understand, why you are so upset, maybe you do like me, or maybe I am a decent friend, Idk what it is.,....

unfortunately i woke up at 3 am with soft porn playing, so no nostalgia, just weired out disgust... it was a weird porn and the man was an alien from another planet or some shit.. so i turned it off, and went back to sleep, ooohhh I wanna see johnny quest.. has anyone ever noticed how fresh he is? white pants, black turtleneck, and loafers, he was a yougin, but always the freshest..LOL.

see you tomorrow.

1 comment:

  1. Word, Johnny Quest? lol. To each her own. lol.

    I feel like when I make this next comment we're talking about the same person. I have come to hate liquor. I don't drink for personal reasons but his drinking has brought my hatred for liquor to a whole new plateau (sp). I wish I could call you to tell you some of the things that have made me so worried lately. You'd think after all that has happened he wouldn't even want to drink. It's ruined his life. Literally. Outside of you, myself and Jessica his friends suck. They don't care about him. Still asking him to go out clubbing and drinking. Asked him to drive still when they knew he had no license. terrible people. That shits not right and he doesn't even see it. It hurts to see someone so involved in his behavior that he doesn't see he's killing himself in so many ways.

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