soooo.. I wake up and start watching this movie about vampires.. and it's super weird.. like super weird.. like i really don't understand it at all but I guess..
so me and she had a talk last night, and we have come to the clearest conclusion possible.. She sees it as impossible and I can only be okay with that. but It's gonna take time, to get to that stage where I can be just her friend... just platonic. ugh. in this case I truly hate that word. But I'm okay actually... I thought I was gonna be a mess. but I'm actually great.. I just really need to move on.. and maybe I won't keep running in to people who I like but they really don't like me back.. bad timing or something, idk, but overall I don't feel bad, or sad, I am bummed that she won't wake me up in the morning.... but .... hey lesson learned.. chalk it up.. when the universe sees it fit... I will have someone, until then, I guess I'll kick it with whomever..
this also makes me feel like I need to stay guarded.. cause maybe it's easier that way..
anywho... back to my confusing movie, and horribly boring saturday.